You hear a lot of people say things like "God only gives you what you can handle", and "What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger"... These are true statements. But after hearing someone say something like that, I can't help but wonder how much should one person have to endure in their life time. I'll use myself as an example. I've had failed relationships, children out of wedlock, battled addiction, dealt with DCF, performed CPR on a loved one who didn't survive, lost the father of my children, and had other miscellaneous trials in my time. I've had to push a car off the road each time I was pregnant and we've had dumb issues with ALL of the houses we've rented. There's a lot more. It's the big stuff and the silly little stuff that all add up and leaves me wondering when I get my break and when enough is enough.
I guess it's never enough and I'll continue to be tested as long as I live. I just wish I could get a break every now and then. I feel picked on. I see people I went to school with living these fairy tale lives and look like nothing could break their perfect existence. It could be jealousy but at the same time, why me?
I don't know. Just some random thoughts for the day.
I think that people work awfully hard to put on the facade of the "perfect existence," when in fact all of us face our own struggles and tests in life. I wouldn't spend too much jealousy on those who you think have it "better." :)
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