Wake up, I'm Fat!

Yes, I stole my title from a book written by one of the women I idolize, Camryn Manheim.

Be that as it may...

I've been heavy for as long as I can remember. I was always the biggest and tallest in each class. The weight just kept piling on. Now that I am pushing 30 years old and have two very active children, I want to do something about it. I have a gym membership, which I am hardly using right now... stupid, I know. I figure if I use my blog to record my progress, I will have to hold myself accountable for what I do (or don't do). I started taking HealtheTrim and working out back in February when I tipped the scales at 286 pounds. YIKES!!! As of today, I am 26 pounds lighter. 260 pounds and I am proud of my progress. My ultimate goal is 180 pounds, another 80 to go. I know I can do it. It's hard without a) proper motivation and b) a workout buddy.

**I'm back into wearing the jeans I was wearing before I regained all the weight that I lost 2 years ago. They are still a little snug, but I get into them! That's motivation!***

Working out is not the issue. I know what I have to do and how to do it. It becomes difficult when I have to drag my butt to the gym and do it with no one to talk to. The iPod gets old quickly. I guess that means I need new music. I <3 Zumba and pilates classes. My schedule doesn't allow for them regularly. Using the Wii and the watching DVD's just isn't the same as a live class with people you can talk to and have fun with. I also have a hard time with these programs that require you to do certain things each day. i.e. Insanity and P90X. They may be effective, but they aren't for me. I can't count how many times I say I want to get up at 4:30 am and go to the gym as a way to start my day. My alarm goes off and I just can't get out of bed. I guess I just need to do it and it will come easier with each passing day.

Diet - the first three letters being DIE!
I'm not one for counting calories, but I have become more aware of portion sizes and have come A LONG way from what I use to consume. I have become more knowledgeable. I read labels and make smarter choices. However, if I have a craving (for chocolate, mostly), I don't deny myself what I'm craving. If I don't give into it, I will end up going CRAZY on it when I do get my hands on it. I have to watch myself with temptations. It's easy to break.

My short-term work out goal (for the next month or so): Go to the gym 3 times per week with cardio each day, upper body one day, abs/pilates one day and lower body one day. I will start keeping track on Monday and reporting Sunday evening. Lord, help me. I'm going to try!

Oh, I forgot to mention... I want to RUN a 5k before the year is over!

***Thanks to everyone who reads and follows my blog and thank you in advance for your support!***